Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Humble Pie

I haven't really watched much news on Katrina - but my heart goes out to all of those who have been affected by it. It makes me think of how easy my life is; survival is not an issue. Stress, lack of sleep, endless worries and responsibilities can consume me, but really, I'm not concerned about the every day concerns of food, shelter, clothing. This humbles me. It's kind of like when I'm really sick, delirious with fever or racked with pain, I often tell myself to remember what it feels like so that when there's a day when things are just OK, I can be reminded that in perspective, OK is really great.

New Shoes Make the World Go 'Round

I bought a new pair of shoes today and I'm just so excited to wear them tomorrow! It's funny how something so little can just put a smile on your face. They're just the cutest little black pumps that look oh so fine with my swooshy skirt and little crochet top. I know I'm going to wake up tomorrow and pop out of bed just so I can get dressed a little quicker. I'm so glad I'm a woman and can appreciate moments like this.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Home again, home again...

I was gone again and I'm finally back home... well for another few days anyways. This month has been good for my wanderlust. It was my brother's wedding last weekend and it was just so beautiful. I don't think I've ever seen two people so perfect for eachother. They wrote their own vows and had the whole place in tears. They just so sincerely expressed their love and devotion and commitment to each other. It was simply beautiful and insipiring for perhaps a somewhat cynical girl like myself. Marriage isn't for me right now, but when I'm ready, I only hope to have what they have found in eachother.

It was great to see my family, my cousins are all growing up and we are getting to know each other again. Despite failing health, my grandparents both made the trip down and I know this meant the world to my brother. Some of my relatives had me scratching my head wondering how we came from the same gene pool... and that's all I'll say about that. I was very successful at using my "inside voice" (meaning the voice inside my head) - except once or twice. Glad to see a smile and a giggle can still let me get away with some mischief.

I'm sitting here sipping my drink (mmmm Bailey's Irish Cream) wondering how I'm going to find the energy to move full force ahead tomorrow. I'm back at work with tons of planning, organizing, and research to do... Then there's this crazy mess from living out of suitcases for the past month. I have 4 new toothbrushes because I keep forgetting to pack mine and have to pick one up where ever I go. My fridge is empty because I didn't stop at the grocery store on the way into town. I go right snakey when I don't have fresh fruits and veggies and food in the fridge. I've had empty cupboards before and I just can't stand an empty fridge. That's first on the list for tomorrow - grocery store.

I feel like I'm embarking on a new year. Ever get the sense that this is it, time to get my shtuff together and get in a routine and get on track and get a life and get healthier and get organized and and and and and? Yikes, better pour another... You know, I really love the smell of my place - I use a natural lavender spray, I miss the smell of my home... Anyways, where was I? Oh yah, I was just about to freak out. I'll be surprised if anyone is still reading this at this point. I've been around so many people and "on" for so long, that it's just so nice to sit quietly with my thoughts... and my drink. :)

I should probably end this post before y'all think I'm a loony case. It's just so good to be back to my little island in the Land of Blog.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

I'm Home!!!

I love my home. I love my stuff. I love being in my own space. I've been travelling and visiting for so long, I'm just happy to be back even if it's only for a couple of days. It's almost time for my brother's wedding and holy cow, what a lot of work!!!! I've been busy helping with that and also taking some time to have a bit of a summer.... I can sure pack a lot into a weekend.


I missed my computer and checking in on everyone. I'll be visiting and seeing what everyone's been up to this evening. Hope all is well in your world!

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Getting a Grip...

Well, life is slowly getting back to normal for this sicko. I had pulled a my neck muscles from coughing and today I can finally turn my head a little. Ouch, OK, not as far as I would like to. Ever have a bruise that you poke just to see if it still hurts? Why do humans do stuff like that? Every once and a while, I crank my neck just to see if I can and, well, ouch. I know, I'm a genius.

Where oh where did summer go? It's slipping through my fingers and I just can't get a grasp on it. Fall is my favorite season, but I'm in no rush here. I need a beach day. A day where I read smutty books and take a cool dip and have a lime margarita at 3pm and work on my tan and nap and then go out and dance the night away... I have some summer to catch up on! I'm meeting with my party girl this weekend. Should be fun, maybe I'll get my day in the sun and party until I forget summer is almost over. Hee hee :)

UPDATE: OK, spammers please move onto next blog and leave me alone in my little place in the Land of Blog. I don't know how to remove a comment so I just erased all of them for now. Sorry guys.

Saturday, August 13, 2005


Check out the comments on my last post - am I mistaken or is this blog spam stuff?

Gasp, I feel so violated, cheap, and used...

Friday, August 12, 2005

The Ripple Effect

Well, it seems as though I really have cast a stone in a pond... People I hardly know come up to me to tell me they heard about the whole herbicide thing. I have another meeting today. I've spent many dollars on meds and I want some cashola. This is ridiculous - I've been back to the doc twice and just now, I'm starting to feel a little human again.

I'm back at home and ready to get into a routine again. Even if it is staying up until all hours of the night to get a project done. I'm a little behind in my work to say the least. The good thing is that before I was sick, I did some major cleaning/organizing/filing and my place feels like new. It's so exciting! I love sitting here at my desk with everything (almost) in place. I also got some framing done - my pictures look awesome. Sigh, smile...

Time to grind some coffee beans and joyfully get to work.

Friday, August 05, 2005

Feeling better

I feel better tonight - thanks for the well wishes :)

True to my nature, I didn't stop the phone calls until I talked to the head honcho, the king pin, the big kahuna, the guy who can make things happen. Happen they did I am pleased to report. (I caught my reflection when I was talking with someone who was jerking me around and trying to give me wrong numbers to cover her ass - yikes. I scared me!) Within 2 hours, I had the head of 3 departments call me with apologies, explanations, and I was signing papers to have any extra costs and future extra costs incurred to be covered (without waving my right to sue). If I was that kind of person, I could make a quick buck, but I'm not. I'll be happy if something like this never happens again.

I'm a little woozy, I'm going to fall asleep with a cold wet face cloth over my face - it's the most comfortable way to breathe. Sexy, I know...

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Bug Off...

I spent my evening in emergency tonight. It seems the grounds people at my place sprayed pesticides everywhere without notifying anyone. I had all of my windows wide open, could barely breathe by the afternoon and then spent the rest of the night at the hospital. I am furious. I'm a piece of work when I'm mad... I can't wait to chew some people out for breakfast tomorrow - if I can breathe and all.